February 18, 2010
It’s so easy to be overwhelmed by the spinning world around you. Everyone is moving so fast and to-do lists get longer and longer. Especially in winter, for me, the lack of sunlight makes me feel as though I have less time available to accomplish all the things I want to do. I am slowly learning to not be frustrated and upset with myself when I don’t finish a to-do list or be working on a variety of things from morning to night. I am slowly learning to be ok with just being, because let’s be honest…I’m not one to actually be continuously “productive” from morning to night. I avoid. I waste time. I procrastinate. I doubt. I worry. I think of all the things I’d rather be doing. I don’t get the “practical” things done that I want to get done in the “timely” manner that I imagine for myself. I set myself up for failure time and time again. And I’m trying to stop all that. And give myself the time, space, and energy to just enjoy the ride.
Life can be found only in the present moment. The past is gone, the future is not yet here, and if we do not go back to ourselves in the present moment, we cannot be in touch with life. Thich Nhat Hanh